I’ve been thinking…
I wonder if I should just nuke my old wordpress blog entirely? (the milliekou.wordpress.com). Thinking about the blog makes me remember all the cringeworthy stuff I wrote and drew since 2015 and it sometimes haunts me, lol.
And it’s not the fear of getting “cancelled” or its likes because if that was the case, it would still be too late to hide them from the internet archive, haha but it’s mainly because it’s a reminder of my old self back in my very dark days from 2015 and just the thought of that blog makes me remember the super bad times I had irl and how bad my skills were.
ehhh… (◞ ‸ ◟ㆀ)
But at the same time, I also don’t want to erase them because no matter how cringey I feel when I read and look at them, they still made me. My current skills exist because of the work I put in there no matter how bad they look now.
And I might regret it like what I did to my oldest accounts.
I really regret how I completely nuked my deviantart and my personal blogs from the 2010s because I’m unable to look back to where I started. I deleted them in a rush because of the same reason, because I cringed at how much of a whiny weab I was and unfortunately, there was no record of it in the internet archive when I searched for them a months ago.
I don’t know. Sometimes I wanna delete it because it’s the old, shitty me, but sometimes I don’t because it’s part of being human to suck so bad at first before getting better.