I’ve been thinking…

I wonder if I should just nuke my old wordpress blog entirely? (the milliekou.wordpress.com). Thinking about the blog makes me remember all the cringeworthy stuff I wrote and drew since 2015 and it sometimes haunts me, lol.

And it’s not the fear of getting “cancelled” or its likes _{because if that was the case, it would still be too late to hide them from the internet archive, haha} but it’s mainly because it’s a reminder of my old self back in my very dark days from 2015 and just the thought of that blog makes me remember the super bad times I had irl and how bad my skills were.

ehhh… (◞ ‸ ◟ㆀ)

But at the same time, I also don’t want to erase them because no matter how cringey I feel when I read and look at them, they still made me. My current skills exist because of the work I put in there no matter how bad they look now.

And I might regret it like what I did to my oldest accounts.

I really regret how I completely nuked my deviantart and my personal blogs from the 2010s because I’m unable to look back to where I started. I deleted them in a rush because of the same reason, because I cringed at how much of a whiny weab I was and unfortunately, there was no record of it in the internet archive when I searched for them a months ago.

Sigh.

I don’t know. Sometimes I wanna delete it because it’s the old, shitty me, but sometimes I don’t because it’s part of being human to suck so bad at first before getting better.

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