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3/4 of the storyboard FINISHED!!! ( •̀ᄇ• ́)ﻭ✧

It’s all blobs, haha. But that’s how my BTS is. It’s uhh..something I can only decipher, lol.

I have to use a multi-ink ballpoint pen for this since it’s convenient for changing colours at a whim. Different colours like red and blue help to identify where the speech balloons are meant to be located, and the detail/description of every panel, respectively.

You can see that I just printed out some random storyboard template I found online since my Midori Storyboard notebook has ran out of pages and it’s a limited edition from..2017-18(?) so I can’t buy it anymore, ORZ.

I like this template though because it has that Midori storyboard format I was looking for, minus the url and logo of the website below, lol.

‘Gonna use this storyboard template for future comics. (^v^)

Geez, doing all these made me miss making comic projects like this.. (ಥ _ʖಥ)

Sigh. I barely drew any doujins/comic projects for the past two years come to think of it. I used to be super passionate with making them and I dunno what exactly caused my exasperation with it.

What went wrong, I wonder.

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frig….

Basically, I uploaded a preview pic of an R18 commission I did and then suddenly had my ko-fi page unpublished…\

Though could be because I also linked my R18 blogsite too.

I made a big oopsie.ORZ

I read again their ToS from the links and damn, it’s become really more specific than the last time I read it a few years ago. Like, even previews aren’t allowed?

Maybe I should have tagged my account as NSFW back then although I don’t mostly draw nsfw hence why I didn’t tag it in the first place when i made my account there.

Maaaaaaannnnn

This friggin’ sucks. It’s within 7 days not exactly after 7 days but still, I worry about them not responding at all even though I submitted a form and took down that nsfw-ish image in my ko-fi site.

The least they could do was do a tumblr and just flag that post instead of my entire ko-fi page, y’know. >__>

Well,

they better respond and put it back. I’m payin’ for their gold plan, haha. 50 usd per year ain’t a small amount.

Anyway,

lesson learned. NEVER EVER post anything that’s even mildly nsfw there especially since my kofi account wasn’t made for nsfw stuff.

Here’s my alternative tip jar/donation link while Ko-fi is currently evaluating my submission ^_^;;:

paypal.me/milliekou

But that was so fast. Like just a few minutes after posting it, I get slammed with this. Bots be getting too smart. >:/

I remember an artist mentioning how the internet isn’t friendly to artists (back when elon musk was the new ceo of twitter) especially to artists who draw nsfw and even if they wanted to get out of twitter which has become more filled with bigots ever since he ook over, but they can’t because of the limitations that many platforms have set and it is true, unfortunately. I get why they’re very strict with porn content to avoid CP and all those gross stuff, but they don’t really have to also ban ethical/legal erotica/art.

ah well.

I have a lot to draw this week so gotta grind!

2022 Art Summary : Slowly Getting Back on Track

So in the midst of writing this blog post, the speakers outside were playing corporate Christmas songs which are annoying af. And John Lennon’s Happy Xmas (War is Over) started to play. Gods, I know that it’s an antiwar song but the friggin’ guilt trip of the first two lines lol.

“So this is Christmas. What have you done?”

Wallowed in my goddamn misery.

As if I needed to feel more guilt about not having much progress this year. >__>

Anyway,

January -> April : Extremely depressed, crying spells almost everyday, Commissions

May -> June: “Normally” depressed, dabbled into drawing random OCs, painting in my personal journal, Commissions

July -> August Playing The Sims 2 to feel better and enjoyed the lore of the series, drawing OCs, Commissions

September : Got into Blood+ again and got so invested in the Schiff particularly with Gie. Also started shipping him and Haji seriously that I started to make a doujin. Commissions

October: Finished the doujin, the first ever since 2020! Commissions

November: Drew more often, rambled …ranted constantly, grieved, got introduced to Noein, lusted after Karasu, shipped Tobi and Atori, Commissions

December: Commissions, got burnt out.

2022 was a super rough year for me, lol. ‘Greeted me with a friggin’ funeral.

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More than a decade later…

So I’ve been editing some scanned photos of my old artworks as I’m decluttering and I realised one of the sketches was Irene.

damn, I’ve always loved her character since, haha.

I was feeling sad seeing those more than a decade old sketchbook images of mine. Thinking about it, my mind during those years must have been so cluttered. The drawing from 2010/11 above has heads on top of heads. Unfinished heads at that, lol.

Gods, was I so disorganised.

I didn’t even put dates on most of my sketches back then, haha. (Hence me being unsure if it was drawn in 2010 or 2011..either of those years) That’s how unserious I was with art.

And yet I compare myself with those artists I see who suddenly had such a big improvement in 1-2 years which led me to feeling more sad than the usual nostalgia sadness because I end up regretting about the years I wasted by not taking art seriously up until I joined the ygo fandom.

But of course, it would be terribly unfair for me to compare myself to those kinds of artists. I don’t know their circumstances.

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Atori x Tobi [ Noein ]

Hello.

Sorry for being quite inactive. ^^;;

I was under a lot of stress from last week’s crappy errands, ORZ.

Thinking about it, that high level of stress must have caused the bad cold I had for the entire weekend which led to heavy grogginess. ://

Anyway,

I thought of posting some month old doodles of Atori and Tobi from Noein. I meant to post them last November but I forgot, gah.

Seeing the doodles again after a few weeks made me cringe a bit, haha. They look so off.

I need to get my hand on their settei for referencing their designs because they can be quite inconsistent in the anime. >.<

Nevertheless, they’re my OTP in Noein, lol. They seem to have the same dynamic as deathshipping with Atori (tall blonde) looking so goddamn ugly to me with his crazy facial expressions early in the anime but ended up being so cutesy later on that I got so fond of him, haha. While Tobi is such a precious nerdy creampuff like Ryou.

I can’t believe Tobi’s 21 years old, but knowing the director, Kazuki Akane, he doesn’t think in that kind of way, (thank god)

From what I’ve seen in Noein, (which I finished a week ago) and …

spoiler alert:

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discovery

I’ve been shitposting a lot here in this blog recently, lol.

I plan on being active and post on tumblr and twitter by next week but for now, I want to have some private fun here and treat this wp blog for its original purpose and that is to post whatever I feel like without any anxious thoughts that many people are watching me. ^^;;

Part of what I miss from my 2015-2020 blog was just me being myself. I posted and complained about whatever and yeah that came with a lot of downsides with so many posts about me being angry, reactionary and at the heat of the moment but it was still my safe space.

Of course now that I’ve grown up and matured (I hope, haha) I realised that there are some stuff that shouldn’t be talked about publicly. I also became less naive with how the world worked and learned more on how to control my impulsive behaviour. I’m stilll impulsive but it’s not as bad as before.

Anyway, I recently discovered something about my Blood+ ship’s voice actors.

They’re very popular as a couple in BL drama CDs, hahaHA

I KNEW THERE WAS SOMETHING I OVERLOOKED!

I’m not very familiar with BL drama CDs but I’m familiar with Drama CDs as products. One comment I saw on a Bleach video perked my intersest. The commenter mentioned that Jun Fukuyama and Katsuyuki Konishi are a very popular duo/couple when it came to voicing BL couples in drama CDs. Katsuyuki being famous for voicing the Tops and Jun voicing the bottoms in those CDs.

The comment was brought up because the video was about some fight between Yumichika who is voiced by Jun and Hisagi who is voiced by Katsuyuki. And I immediately remember my B+ ship because Hagi is voiced by Katsuyuki and Gie is voiced by Jun, as well.

seeing that,

I FANGIRLED.

HARD.

>v<

I HAD TO do some research, haha. Apparently, they had some BL drama CDs back in 2005 and the episode where Gie and Haji encountered each other was aired in March 2006. Gie is a “minor” supporting character so Jun was the guest VA (according to the interview I read) and my convo with Rin spawned this idea on what went behind the scenes:

Let me make it clear that I DO NOT ship real people at all.

though ngl they look adorable together when I turn them into cheebs, haha. (srsly dat height difference. )

…maybe I could make an original gay story that revolves around this premise, haha.

I’m sure they’re good friends irl.

I don’t know how Jun looked like in 2006 so I just got this design from his profile pic online. With Katsuyuki, I based his design on his pictures in the Material Settings book 1 (since he was interviewed there as well.)

>. >

Hmmm….

*rubs chin*

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what in the ever loving f***?! [ B+ rant]

So I was translating or rather, loosely translating the Material Settings book 2 of BLOOD+ using DeepL (cuz I’m too lazy to translate it myself) and oh friggin’ boy, I have never been so pissed on an interview, lol.

I’m exaggerating but I am still very furious with Fujisaku’s responses or as I would call, revelations on why he killed off my blorbos.

Anyway, the interview I’m referring to is page 82-83 of book 2.

Going to copy-paste the important highlights of the interview where I got so angry on.

(SPOILERS AHEAD)

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