Quite a depressing week last week, ORZ.

Also, I’ve been thinking…

I seem to improve more with taking my time with drawing, lol.

Such a simple. method but it was something I found great difficulty to do because of a certain….pressure?

the pressure of having to be fast and post everyday or else yknow people are gonna ditch you, or think you’re dead or inactive. It’s a social media phenomenon of having to post a drawing everyday I think?

Obviously this is from personal experience, take note but I still remember my deviant art days and I wouldn’t say dA was a “social media” at least, on how current social media is like. Yeah, it was a social networking site for artists, writers, photographers and their likes but it didn’t have the late stage capitalist culture of what current social media is now if that makes sense?

Because back then, many artists didn’t post frequently. There were artists who did post like almost everyday but it wasn’t something that was the standard. People understood that art took time to make and people were willing to even wait for a monthly artwork of an artist they followed. I surely did.

But now, there’s this huge pressure, be it hobbyist or professional, that you have to post everyday, to constantly make “content” rather than an artwork to be consumed constantly like some commodity.

Many artists give tips that are often along the lines of “DRAW AND POST EVERYDAY.” Which isn’t bad at all but of course, what kind of art exactly will you be posting everyday?

Everyday would lead to burnout and compromising quality mostly.

Not saying that simple, rough doodles aren’t meant to be posted and that only polished good art are the ones that should be online but I’m talking about a problem that is deeper which is this need for instant gratification..which has a load of negative consequences for the art and artist.

Art takes time. That’s how it is. The entire artistic process takes time from introspection to the drawing or painting itself.

and even I succumbed to that pressure.

Part of why my improvement was delayed was because I didn’t take time to reference and double check.

Sometimes until now, like referencing for example takes quite a lot of time and I often just wanna blitz my art, “oh my god I’ll just half ass this and just fucking post this cuz this is taking hours” and in some days I do blitz it but if I wanna improve, I’ll have to be patient even if it means not being as quick as before.

And yes. To anyone still reading my blog, that would mean, less frequent drawings …as of now, sorry. (That’s part of my grinding.)

Doesn’t help when some artists are like:

I mean ofc some artists are that fast and heavily skilled but I often wonder if many who do that lie or exaggerate, lol.

Sketch my ass. I’ve gone on a rant back then about those sketchbook tours and how a lot of ‘‘em are supposed to be titled portfolio sketchbook tours because it’s deceiving and selective . I think the same thing applies here too, same with speed paints, etc.

The problem generally with art is you almost often see the final results so people vastly underestimate how difficult it is (looking at you ai “art”. bros) . And even in Timelapses which are sped up, like the ones I post here make them look like they’ve been produced so quickly when it’s not like that in reality. What ends up happening is having unrealistic expectations and this overemphasis on final results which can become huge drawbacks and foster an unhealthy way of thinking about making art. I experienced the same shit too hence why I’m very critical of those, lol.

I mean srsly, remember the time when sketchbooks were meant to be….for sketches? Like mostly loose sketches and where a lot of mistakes can be seen …because it’s a fucking SKETCHBOOK haha.

Hell, even I’m guilty of doing the same “only showing final results” too. I unfortunately forget to post process pics here due to forgetfulness and anxiety .

Although……writing about this subject…reminded me to post more wips and process pics here.

Anyway, I went on a tangent but yeah, I’m a very impulsive and impatient person so it’s been a pain in the ass to be slower than usual, taking your time has its drawbacks as that would mean seeing more mistakes the longer you work on it.

But I think it gets easier with time. The more familiar I get with referencing and taking my time, the less I need to double check.

Also some draws.

Ohhh and I dreamt of this scene below the other night haha.

Gods, it was such a nice dream. Rarely do I get my OTPs in my dreams. How I never wanted to wake up, haha.

Why did the delivery man ring the bell. Dude disturbed my fantasies, lol. What was gonna happen next ORZ…

I blame Rin for getting me into this series again after so many years huhuhu. It’s ALL HER FAULT.

And this ship..is a ship I only started shipping heavily last year, haha. My otp next to kai and Irene and saya and kaori.

Hagi and Gie or hagie, for short, takes first place this year though, lol.