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warming up and some ygo talk

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I managed to tidy 80% of my workspace today, heh.

I also got to finish the thumbnails of the comic commission so the next step would be sketching and then lineart and the colouring. Hopefully, I can finish it in a month and a half since it’s gonna be nonstop grinding at this point. (plus colouring would put more effort and then more time, gahh.)

I’m also trying to balance my time with storyboarding chapter 7 of the AUU on top of that. Playing Fata Morgana last week made me remember how much I still love deathshipping, gendeerbent or not, it’s still the same beautiful dynamic, haha.

Here’s a preview of the 2023 updated script:

Can’t believe it’s been two years since I last updated the AUU, though. I’m not really sure if people would still read it if I ever finish Chapter 7 but eh, I need to show I can finish stuff. And we both worked hard for that. It would be a shame if we just left it hanging there. Six chapters is sooo little.

Although throughout the years, I learned that sometimes, things don’t really go to plan and there are periods where I get too burnt out to draw so I need to take a hiatus from the doujin project from time to time. ORZ

Me and Rin have a lot of AUs for deathship tbh, haha. There’s a Monster World AU (non chibi) I want to do too but I’ll have to find time for that as well.

Ahh..And then there’s the pocket citron which is the longest, and something I also want to finish this year.

Here’s are some very rough pen doodles of my ygo babies:

I hope I improved drawing these babies, haha. I mean, it’s ballpen drawings but ..I needed to see if I still got it, haha…haaaa.

ahhh…maybe not.

It’s really been a while since I drew them. T__T

Need to practice drawing their hair again, haha. And clothing.

Come to think of it, we also have this side story of the AUU which is Angstshipping. It’s around the question on what if Mariku and YB didn’t come back? So Malik and Ryou are the main couple here. Me and Rin just ended up falling in love with their dynamic and chemistry that we ended up shipping them while making the AUU chapters, haha.

And then, there’s the Mirror! pup comic scenarios I also want to draw because we accidentally shipped the Alternate versions of Jou and Seto, haha. To think they started off as best buddies in that AU for the lulz.

Honestly, it’s a fucking lot. All the ygo stuff I posted before are just the tip of the iceberg, haha. I do miss drawing them. But it’s also good to alternate fandoms. I don’t really want to just draw ygo, haha. I still have me other blorbos from other beloved series I want to draw.

Ahhh, why do comics have to be so time consuming?

I also sometimes have those self sabotage episodes where I become too paralysed with perfectionism and overwhelmed with self doubt that it delays me from finishing many passion project works. But it’s a bad habit that should stop this year because I’m sick and tired of doubting myself.

What do I even accomplish when I follow that stupid, negative voice in my head that insists that everyone hates what I draw?

Nothing.

Anyway, I should head to bed. Need to sleep. I have to wake up early. ORZ

Will post these tomorrow on tumblr and twitter. Gods, I forgot to post there for the past two days. I need to be regular with posting this month, gah.

Short Comic – Detangle

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‘Back from the countryside and finished this short comic today 😀

I kept the colouring style simple and basic. I tried to resist getting carried away and making it detailed, ehe…It’s a bad habit of mine to suddenly make everything detailed when it’s not necessary.

Not as appealing as I’d like it to be but it’s a start, I guess.

WIP

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I’ve been meaning to finish this comic today but I was busy with other stuff earlier. ORZ

Here’s a WIP shot of the upcoming short comic strip:

He looks constipated, doesn’t he?

I’ll be at the countryside this weekend for family obligations hence why I’m so frustrated about not finishing this today. :/

I’ll do my best to finish this short comic strip on Monday, though. I’m aiming for a rough or “unpolished” style because my goal is to be very loose with drawing and colouring, haha. Not that I want it to be ugly but I want to find comfort in making “rough” works. It might help me overcome my anxiety and perfectionism. (。・・)ノ

LEMON CREAM PIE

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Hello.

This chibi art is my excuse to draw a pie I recently came to love (and crave!) with my favourite ship.

So the story is, I tried some Lemon Cream Pie a few months ago and I never expected to end up falling in love with its taste and velvety texture, haha. I was never a fan of lemon-y desserts like lemon cakes, lemon squares, etc. because I couldn’t imagine eating something especially a dessert that had a lemon taste. I always thought that lemons are only good as a drink (lemonade) or something to accompany a seafood dish but this pie changed my mind. It was sooo scrumptious and smooth I ended up eating probably more than half of the entire pie, eheh…^_^;;

Anywho,

I love citronshipping so much that whenever I see lemons or any fruit resembling citron fruits, my mind imemdiately goes to that ship, haha.

And drawing food is relaxing so why not make an artwork of a favourite ship PLUS a favourite dessert?

Discouragement and Comparison

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Hello.

‘Sucks to say I had such severe depression this week. A mixture of rl stress/problems and hormones (PMDD) exacerbating the entire thing with terrible mood swings which completely zapped my motivation to do anything that’s self-care related.

Plus a heavy period since yesterday, ORZ. I was fatigued and I was lying in pain for hours today. (Even painkillers aren’t that effective nowadays, ugh.)

So…

I was confiding to Rin about my perfectionist mentality last night which hindered me from drawing as much as before(aside from Trauma). I found myself endlessly scrolling through so many amazing art because I burnt out weeks ago and I wanted to gain inspiration. Unfortunately, there’s a limit to scrolling as I found out because instead of making me inspired, it left me super unmotivated and discouraged to draw, LOL.

I felt so inadequate with my skills comparing myself to their art that I wanted to quit drawing.

What’s the point of drawing when I fucking suck and like 100000s of artists are better than me? All my art is trash and nobody likes it. I should quit.

It sounds doomer and childish, haha but I’m sure I’m not the only one who experiences that. Not to mention, endlessly scrolling, telling myself ” Oh, this is for inspiration for me to draw.” thinking it was helping me when I was self-harming essentially. It was causing me more depression and anxiety making me think I need to be X type with A detail just for me to be a good artist. I was procrastinating through it, too. Instead of drawing, i just scrolled and scrolled until I felt so disgusted with my works and even myself. I was sulking and wallowing in self hatred instead of grinding.

So being desperate to stop this, I asked Rin to be my accountability buddy in the meantime. She agreed and she told me I’m currently banned from looking and scrolling through artists online. That I should be getting my inspiration from offline sources which helps more because there’s no endless scrolling option offline (art books). Hopefully, I can keep up with it. It’s been helping me today at least, to focus more on my art and our comics.

Royal Purity [COMIC]

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I really need to be quick with drawing. ORZ

Thankfully I’m gaining back my momentum so I hope I become as fast as I was before all that stressful crap happened last year and be more productive and post more art. ᕦ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ᕤ

Sooo….

This AE comic idea came from an old bbc documentary entitled, “Pedigree Dogs Exposed.” It’s an old documentary from 2008 but I only watched it a few weeks ago and I recommended it to Rin right after. It’s common knowledge by now that mutts are generally healthier than purebred dogs but it was still a very interesting…or rather, appalling and eye-opening documentary.

I always find it weird how cat owners from my experience don’t really give a crap about their cat breeds while dog owners (like me) fuss about breeds, lol. I get certain breeds have some history to it (working dog breeds for herding, etc. ) but the whole pure breed standard stuff emphasis on Pure..kinda’ seems problematic to me especially regarding the flat faced dog breeds (pugs, french and english bulldogs, etc).

Anyway, sorry for getting carried away,

the entire idea of purebred, purity or pure blood made me think of the Ancient Egyptian Royal Family who were…. inbred irl. This comic was mostly to poke fun of it. That, and I despise monarchies. It’s strange how me and Rin were talking about inbred purebred dogs and then it went to poking fun at royalty, lol.

chibi de-rusting comic [citron ]

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Hello.

I spent the entire week mourning the passing of my beloved dog so I apologise if I haven’t replied or posted anything lately. It’s been very difficult to adjust to this new reality without my relative and my pet. I’m still grieving obviously but I’m feeling better than before. I’ve been exercising more and de-rusting with drawing.

I admit, I am super out of practice with drawing. I lost my passion for it after my relative’s death and this loss became worse when my dog died. I even wanted to delete all of my blogs/social media accounts after finishing the remaining commissions. I couldn’t bear to finish the Blood Plus comic or just look at it because I was working on it when I was told that my relative was intubated and in a critical condition. Everytime I see it, I just get flashbacks of that scenario and it pains me when I get those.

I ended up having an existenstial crisis after their deaths. Reflecting on my own mortality and re-examining what I want to do with my life, lol. I’ve been super clingy with my family and other pets, too. I wanted to spend more time with them because….you never know. (aka catastrophic thinking)

Anyway, I tried to de-rust myself with some cheebs. It’s actually more detailed colour-wise. oops

I wanted it to be simplistic, just like a regular messy doodle but I wanted to also do some colouring/painting warmups so I went crazy with glazing and using different tones, values etc, whatever could help me regain my momentum.

I didn’t like the result ORZ. Welp, just need more practice.

Redraw from Last Year

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edit: damn i ended up typing archers instead of arches lmao.

I tested a new watercolour paper, Baohong, and it seemed quite decent especially with the blending. Comparable to Arches apparently according to some people but I’ve never tried the latter so I don’t know if it’s true, lol. (Isn’t Arches like the Rolls Royce of watercolour paper?)

But it’s affordable for like, a 100% cotton watercolour paper and I need all the practice sheets since I’m a total amateur with this media. :’D

(gods, where were all these good, quality affordable brands when I was young? lol.

One reason why I didn’t do watercolours as a kid aside from having barely any art class in my school’s curriculum was due to how expensive they were around me when I was a broke af student.)

It’s a redraw of a little smiling tkb from last year.

The texture is quite rough. ‘Could be because it’s cold press but also due to the lighting..

Anyway, I scanned it and enhanced the colours slightly to make some of ’em pop.

My tablet also broke a few hours ago. ugh.

I’m extremely frustrated since it’s been with me for almost a decade and it just..doesn’t work anymore all of a sudden. :/

Snore

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I realised that I haven’t posted and drawn as many personal art these past few months due to very hectic rl stuff earlier this year which is quite frustrating. My output has decreased quite significantly compared to last year so I thought of doing daily weekday doodles starting this week.

My goal is to draw anything, be it fanart or original art, a messy sketch/doodle, painting, comic or just a WIP/thumbnail and upload it here on WP, tumblr and twitter from Mondays to Fridays. ^_^

….hopefully I meet that goal, gah. I have to. ORZ

Anyway, here’s Citronshipping gag strip. 😀

Below is the thumbnail/storyboard of the comic. 😀